I long for to explore more promising shores.
Woe is me.
Yeah, my writing state of mind is that bad.
This month is the 7-year anniversary of when I began writing seriously.
I have the 7-year-itch… to be more successful than I am now.
Now I have a small stack of small-piece publications .
I need more validation.
Writers and established authors have provided wonderful words of encouragement.
It’s not them, it’s me.
I’ve followed all the rules. I read the books in my genre. I’ve read and applied how-to-write advice. I attend conferences. I took poetry and grammar classes. I ask other writers to critique my manuscripts. I revise my queries and manuscripts a zillion times before I submit. I research agents thoroughly.
There are glimmers. A full request here. ABNA rounds or contests won there.
But it goes nowhere.
My biggest hurdle is networking. I’m intimidated when I talk to agents and editors. My friend said they wear pants like the rest of us. I say, “But they’re fancy pants.”
I’ve been querying a middle grade since December. There were a few promising developments. Now I find out that, after a zillion rewrites, my query is “too vague.” So I’ve rewritten. AGAIN. Since many agents will ONLY view the query before they request pages, I feel I’ve blown a few promising chances to have pages read.
There are more agents out there. Small presses. I’ve received some promising feedback from agents on this manuscript. There are certainly more chances for it. It’s not finished.
But sometimes I feel like I am.
4 writers have read my current YA. It’s now out with the 5th. I envision a trilogy. But I won’t let myself write the other 2 books. If the 1 doesn’t sell (and I must face that my track record of 0 books published is not great), then how will I feel if all 3 are written?
3x as worse.
But here’s the thing, I tell myself to move on to the next story, which is why I have an upper-middle grade rough draft ½ finished. But the YA story writes itself in my head. All. The. Time.
In my mind, I have these wonderful stories. I itch to share them.
Please share your writer highs and woes.